Again, But Why

I have written a story book, a poetry book or websites that I opened and closed before to express myself, to make a note of the events that developed and the years that followed. I actually started writing while trying to express myself with my first sentences of 9 months.

I have opened websites on a whim, sometimes as a digital diary, sometimes with a fancy name.

The excitement was high at the beginning. Writing, sharing, leaving a voice has always been important to me and will always be important…

But then something always remained unfinished. The speed of the days, the chaos of life, love for the country that I put before myself, sometimes being silent out of necessity, being silenced, but maybe more the fatigue of the mind, the silencing of the inner voice.

Sometimes it's a question of "who will read it?" and sometimes a concern of "is it now their turn?"

But this time is different.

This time, I know why I started writing, why I need to continue, in this complicated process that the world and our country are going through, I need to write more and meet millions like me; I know I have to write. Because I don't just want to think about what accumulates inside me every passing day, I want to say it. I want to entrust what I experience, what I see, what I feel, what I try to understand, my worries, my dreams, not just to myself, but to words.

This blog is so much more than a showcase or a career move.

This blog is an internal accounting, a state of saying “I am here”.

An effort to search for the sound in silence, the depth in everyday life.

Today, as I open this blog, I want to meet good people all around the world. I want to write in defiance of the increasing darkness, anger, bans, wars, polarization, lovelessness, relationships that progress with a "fast food" mentality that consumes the day, lost friendships, disregard, unconscionability, impositions. This time, I have a very strong intention to meet with many more good people, everyone who thinks, has a conscience, is tolerant, and works to make this world a better place.

Sincerity will be my companion.

And yes, I'm starting over again.

But this time it's not just the beginning.

This time, I know why I have to keep going.